Where are you going?

Don't know...  Do I need an answer to have a meaningful, intentional life?  I mostly make it up as I go along.  And yes, I know I should write down my goals, but I haven't yet.  I respond to life's immediacy and not according to concepts and beliefs.  It's painful and paradox at times, yet ultimately that's the only way I feel alive.  And at other times I wish I were different...